sparkle

optimism is the new black

like you already know if you read this journal with any consistency, i am plagued by a terrible borderline personality disorder spinkle in some historionic, paranoia, shizotypal and you have moi!!! so, yeah mood swings are an issue, but fortunately they are taking a turn for the better. like i said: i work all the time, but for some reason the past week has lent itself to my being in a better disposition with my work.

i guess it has something to do wtih my loans going through. hooray for having money. i hate to admit it, but my dad, grandmother and all the other older people in my life are right about attitude, it really has so much impact on how you view the world. look at me, i sound like some kinda dr. phil-esque tv shrink. no, really...i can't offer any advice on how to change your attitude, but i can say that a low calorie diet combined with lots of excercise has dramatically improved my physical as well emotional well-being. i layed off the diet pills, too, those things are just mood time bombs just waiting to go off!!!

so, yeah, it is a rare occasion that i get to be happy, but i am a lot closer to happiness than i was a year ago....