sparkle

sleepy sleepy sparkle....

got me some work, you know besides the lucrative career of being an SG...i hate being so poor, at least now i will have some money for "recreational" things. mwahahah. people dont understand, but it would be a lot easier just to be good...a lot less expensive, at least...

something i was thinking about earlier:
i am terribly insecure. i dont know if it is from growing up with spoiled assholes that were evil incarnate or just trying to do something and failing. i am not what you would call a shy person, but far from what you would consider commanding the attention of the room. a few weeks ago, a supposed friend told me (to put in simple terms) that in competition she would be sure to win. and in just kinda struck me as hurtful. i know i cant very well compete with her, i guess because im not sexy enough or whatever. shes dating someone, i am not...it isnt important, i guess im getting all drama again. anyway, who else is with me for being insecure? i know im not the only one here...share your moments of self-doubt with me.