I wish I wasn't so indifferent to her now. She used to mean the world to me. Now we aren't even friends, and from the looks of it, even passing acquaintances is something that won't even happen.
So why blog here? I think my Tumblr is compromised, as I did accidentally give it to her once. I also don't think anybody would read my blog post here anyway. Most people on this site are just interested in women and the odds of any of the people I'm worried about reading my stuff are next to zero.
I wish we were still friends, but the more I think about it, the more she hit me exactly where she knew it would hurt me the most.
I did tell her exactly what things could hurt me the easiest because once upon a time, I trusted her with such info, and was sure she would never hurt me, and if she did, it would not be so malicious that she would aim for the most venerable parts of my soul if she ever found the need to hurt me.
I followed by acting badly, so that didn't help any. I say it was because I was hurt, but is that ever an excuse? A reason yes, but never an excuse.
Now I'm in the act of moving on, to find somebody I feel I can trust or feel as open as I did with her.