It’s weird that I can feel as alone as I do right now. I know I have friends and people I could spend time with. But nobody that fills an emotional void. Nobody that I feel close to.

I got a good friend who started dating a swinger. Nice girl, I’ve had conversations with her. She asked along with the concent of my...
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bookcouple:
I think once you get to a certain age, it’s more important to have that connection with someone... good luck

When I stay up all night or if I take extended naps it’s always a horrible time for me. Sleeping in the day, my anxiety and things that have been bothering me in the back of my mind come to be when I sleep in the daylight.

My dreams in the day is somewhere between awake and asleep. It’s like being stuck in...
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bookcouple:
I’m sorry, I hope you start getting some more peaceful sleep at night
spameater:
@chroi @bookcouple thanks for the concern and tips, it's always been an issue for me when I sleep when the sun is up. And like I said, it's worse if I'm stressed.

My life never has been my own. It will never be my own. Not to go into details here, but that’s what’s been messing with me.

The fact that my responsibilities and been decided for me though no actions of my own. The fact that stigmas I live with had nothing to do with my actions.

Maybe it’s best if I’m...
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chadf1980:
Oh man do i feel this
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I can't wait till this phone is closer to death. Then I'll lose those conversations I refuse to delete, but no longer wish to have.

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Just once I would love to get a text that says, “Hey how are you?”, or a call/text that leads with, “You want to meet up and grab a bite to eat?”. Or just somebody wanting to hang out.

All with never being an attempt to lean on me to help or listen to their issues. Sometimes I just want somebody to be around...
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Do you know that we spoke about a future together until the moment I asked somebody to be in a relationship with me? Is it weird I shared my dreams with you and put my hope in another?

She knew about you, but you did not know about her. You both made me smile every time we spoke. Now, she is nothing more than an...
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"The worst thing you could possibly do is listen to what I’ve been through and put me through it again."

Something I saw on Tumblr.

This what I wrote after somebody who I considered my closest friend, attempted a relationship with me. She knew what would hurt me most, and she did exactly that and was even blunt with an "oh well" attitude about...
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Why is it easier to find sex than it is to find somebody to connect to emotionally? It's such the opposite of when you're younger. When young, you talk on the phone all day with somebody, share all your secrets, hold hands down the street. As an adult, that's harder to come by. Sex becomes almost casual.

I wish I had an...
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aurorah:
Totally agree with you. Sad but true.
pimenta:
Because sex, for most of people, is Just physical, so people dont need to be attached. But i think being attached is so much better than sex with feeling nothing at all besides horny haha is so much better share things with someone you like, even sex is better. I cant find anyone cause everyone is busy having sex with everybody, not being attached. I'm 7 years single haha
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I wish I wasn't so indifferent to her now. She used to mean the world to me. Now we aren't even friends, and from the looks of it, even passing acquaintances is something that won't even happen.

So why blog here? I think my Tumblr is compromised, as I did accidentally give it to her once. I also don't think anybody...
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