It’s nearly 2:30am in my part of the world. I leave for work in a couple of hours. It’s currently humid as fuck, here (it will feel like 41°C by the time I’m done work, which is pretty crappy for a northerner). I could spend this time gaming or watching something or reading, but I find myself wanting to be a bit creative, to express myself. I’ve been wanting to do that more and more lately. I couldn’t tell you exactly why. Maybe it’s just a sign that I’m getting older, that my clock is ticking faster and faster as the years go by, and soon enough I won’t even be a memory. In moments like these, I often think more about my failings than I do about my successes, which is a shame, really, since life is really too short to dwell on mistakes. Though some of us may worship Divine entities, none of us are of that caliber, so mistakes are gonna happen at some point or another. I really should be more fixated on my growth as a man and my place in society. I should remember the positive impact I’ve had on my family and friends. I should think about how I can become better than I am. Neurons that fire together wire together, though, and I have spent a lot of time being down on myself. It’s a tough habit to break, given it’s so easy to fall back into. I’ll continue to try to reprogram myself, though, because, well, what’s the alternative? It’s not a great or helpful one, that’s for sure. Anywho, thanks for listening to my Ted Talk. Rest well, SG peeps.
