Saturday Jan 11, 2003

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I have been having the most horrible nightmares... sleeping loads but never feeling rested. I am miserable. I feel so empty...
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deebee:
it's good that you feel empty after what happened last week. that means you are for real

don't try to change yourself either for petes sake, you read good books already...
soph:
thanks, everyone...you make me feel a little better. At least I'm not crying all day, every day anymore. I know it's wrong and self-destructive, but somehow I feel guilty because the emptiness is overriding the pain. It's so hard not to torture myself, to make myself proud of who I am, or even to know who I am...

Wednesday Jan 08, 2003

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I'm a new-ish member, and I suddenly felt like writing for the first time... I'm starting to feel close to you all, so I guess I'll share. I was reading everyone's happy new year entries, and it makes me even more depressed that I had the worst holiday ever. I got dumped by my fiance on new year's eve, and I've been crying all week....
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holdensolo:
Sorry to hear your holiday was blah.

Forget him. He's a heartbreaker. He'll do it everytime. He did the same thing to me!!!



nathanfr:
All these depressing starts to a new year... You arent alone.

Want to rebuild yourself? Do what you said... make some new friends. Go find some people who make you feel really good about yourself... you can find em milling around at PSU. Dont think about your ex, even if you feel like you have to... it'll only make you cry more. Ive got tons more of advice... if you want it. ha

Cheers to people with shitty beginnings to the new year and newish members. Time for another rum and coke...