somebroad

Ooh, hope the fair was fun.

Yes, so how did the fair fare (and which one are you talking about?) If you didn't get enough of freeks and geeks this last week, you could always try to hit up the Comic Con down in San Diego this weekend. I've never been to one, but I hear it's actually kind of fun. There's even rumor of a Suicide Girls booth featuring REAL, LIVE Suicide Girls (amid the wannabe Jedis, Klingons and WIzards).

I wish you a nice weekend sweetie.

I'm starting to think that most people aren't the people they think they are. And for the most part people are much better people than they think.

So unless you're put stealing kittens and burning old folks homes... I'd say it's fairly safe to assume that you're actually a better person than you see yourself as.

I had this conversation a few times with other people over the weekend. Everyone has their issues, but as I was confident in telling them they are really amazing people- I'm also confident in telling you. Even though I may only you know you from a few years of journal entries.

I know who I really am, I just refuse to admit it!

Hmm, sounds like you need some great money making ideas. That or a higher paying job. Sigh... I know where you're coming from. Everyone can save money, it's simple, but those damn pesky bills and unexpected expenses take big bites out of the daily toiling in the salt mine. Also, it takes takes too damn long to get a good roll of dough going. And if you want to just *gasp* spend money on yourself, forget about it (that's what credit cards are for!) Going into debt a problem? Mortgage the house. Gone bankrupt? I hear there are some nice cardboard boxes for let under the freeway bridges... Ok, back to reality here. So they say patience is a virtue, but then how the hell are you supposed to live, especially if you try and live every day as if it were your last. Since there's no such thing a money tree, maybe you could invest in producing some sort of "cash crop". Personally, I'd opt for being a hemp farmer. Yeah, I know it's illegal, but it's just so versatile and easily grown. It really could pay off in the future, but fuck if it isn't illegal. As long as you're willing to play the odds though, I guess you might as well go for broke... You could be like Nancy Botwin and be the next pot queen of suburbia (just try to avoid getting into bed with the DEA). Me, I don't think I could hack it, the whole dealer to jail bitch thing creeps me out. Scratch that, maybe you could write a book. Some people actually have made some money this way, but most don't. To win the Pulitzer, you'll have to come up with something new and original. Something you know your audience will love and come back, begging for more. The thing is you've got to know what people really want. Take money, everyone wants more then they've got, especially if they need it, and direly when they owe it (or Guido is gonna take out your kneecaps). Oh right, back to money and books (maybe you could be a bookie, you know, keep the ledger straight, hide the illicit accounting, and skim a little cash for yourself - everybody wins!) Oh, right. Jail, kneecaps or even worse, paper cuts! Ok, now I'm stuck on books and money (thanks). Hmm. I know. You could write a book on how to make money! I can see it now: *wavy flash back-forward effect*

Your Money Or Your Kneecaps: The Down and Out Guide To Making Cash And Keeping The Loan Sharks Away

By: Some Broad (Forward Written By Funny Guy, Steve Martin)

Chapter 1. Write a book about how to make money...

Chapter 2. Write a book about how you got rich by writing a book about how to make money.

Chapter 3. There, you're rich, who the hell gives a crap about what's in the rest of this book?

Chapter 4. A scintillating and steamy essay on compounded interest, mutual investment accounts, money markets, bond trading, and panda bears.

Chapter 5. Screw Chapter 5, just make sure that the book is always checked out from the local library.

Chapter 6. Insert very gratuitous picture of Gary Shandling eating a ham sandwich and a danish.

(I keep imagining his creepy head weaving back and forth here, weird).

Chapter 7. Peccadillos and Vices, The Question To All Of Life's Answers

And so on and so forth... Wow, this has become a dissertation on I'm not sure what. Holy hell, it's late! I've got to get to sleep. Take care and try to keep smiling. Bye for now.

:hugs:
i know it doesnt do much, broken hearts are hard to repair and need little more than time. but either way, i hope you feel better soon! you're much too pretty to feel so sad.

I find the mending part equally troublesome... Sorry you've hit a rough patch. Given time, I'm sure you'll be back to smooth sailing. Not that it will do you any good, but this song sometimes helps sooth me back from the pit of despair... Sometimes it doesn't. It just reminds me of moving on after the pain.


Take care and hang in there.

Amazing endings are best. Then there is no let down.

Oh no... This picture of you is too sad, I can hardly bear it. I'm so sorry things didn't work out. Should you need it, here's a big ((HUG)) for you. Mourn for now, but try not to be sad for too long. Given time, I'm sure you'll find your "folie deux". In the mean time, you have my sympathy (and empathy).

Sorry to see you're sad.

Hopefully better times are on their way.

I once heard of a parable about the tree and the reeds. Over the years of his life, tree has seen many things; the seasons change and the plants, birds and land animals come and go, but he is always there... Firm and resolute, he is convinced that he will always outlast all others... Beneath him nestles a bed of reeds, to him they are small and thin, frail and weak. He looks down upon them with pity, for he is certain they will not last after the mildness of Autumn turns to the cold bitterness of Winter. One evening, the weather turns foul and the wind begins to blow. Mighty tree boasts of it's strength to the reeds and they just sigh while the growing breeze sends invisible waves of dancers, spinning along trough them. As the breeze strengthens into a wind, tree thrusts out his sturdy branches, leaning hard into the powerful gusts that begin to buffet them. Tree looks down upon the flimsy reeds and feels sad, for he is certain his sister reeds will be destroyed before the lashing is through. Suddenly, there is a great crack and tree feels himself tumbling over. His old roots, unearthed and exposed, reach to the sky while his arms and crown break as he crashes into the reeds below. "How is it that I have fallen while you still stand?" The broken tree asks the reeds, now as tall as he. "We may be small and thin, but we are flexible and bend with the wind. You have grown to be strong and tall, but because you are hard, you've broken because you can no longer bend."

It's good to have a backbone, just remember to keep it flexible for those Gumby-like moments in life.

It's fine to compromise, but you shouldn't have to feel like you're the one who always has to sacrifice just make her happy (how does that make you feel?). Healthy relationships need reciprocity, otherwise you'll just be convincing yourself that settling for less then you deserve is really all that you deserve. Does that sound fair? Not to me. However... There may be some things your partner feels very strongly about and you shouldn't demand that they change in order to have a relationship. (Threatening a relationship over some minor issue is petty and hurtful). On the other hand, if there is a problem with something major and pivotal in the relationship, then the relationship itself hinges upon resolving the problem, otherwise there is no relationship at all... (Am I making any sense?)

I'm really sorry to hear that you've hit a bump in the road, you seemed so happy. Still, it's a good thing you've recognized the inevitability of the problem if left alone. You may still be able to work it out if you can express your concerns and somehow communicate your feelings on the matter. Just don't leave her in the dark if you plan on leaving her, let her know upfront and be honest. If things don't go well, then you'll have a clearer conscience and she'll have to face the consequences of her actions head on. The least you can do is say you tried.

Looks like an all out battle is brewing.... but that's not always a bad thing.

Sometimes it's better to fight than to compromise. It just works sometimes.

But good luck regardless.