softkilldoll

feeling a lot better than yesterday
worked out a little bit
i lost a pound which is cool
anyways
ive been thinking
im 20 years old
and i really want to do something great with my life and do something that i want to do...like in the near future
everybody says "We do the things we have to, in order to do the things we want"
Thats true. But it should be true only to a certain extent
I feel like my father hates his job. Its corporate and he has to deal with all this bullshit everyday
I don't want that for my life. I don't want to get into that habit of liking the money and dealing with that stuff on a daily basis. Its not worth it to me.
Everyone says I should stay in college. College doesnt stimulate me at all....and whats it going to get me? Probably a corporate job that doesnt pay nearly enough on entry for the 4 years of hell i went through to get there.
I want to be a model. I want to have my own online business by the end of this year or early next year.
I want to open a vintage, pinup inspired boutique in my town within the next 4 years.
There are so many people out there who never had an ounce of education, just a dream, and opened up a business. I can do the same. They took a risk.sometimes it works out, other times it doesnt.
It's just not right that life is so expensive now. Damn inflation makes it hard to just take a risk.

I wish I could just get myself take some mroe damn risks.

K my thoughts are done for right now.