sofakingaural

SSDD:
school is just a pain in my head that never goes away.

More importantly, I am fed up with all the racists and generally ignorant people in the world. I have been subject to the word "nigger" many, many times this year. I am in an inter-ethnic (I don't believe in race, because it has no actual merit and is a social construct used to control and manipulate.) relationship and it is full of painfully stressed out conversations about "race". These little talks are in addition to all the dumb comments and stares people make when they see us together. I never really wanted to dwell on the fact that I'm black and I never let it become the total sum of me and who I am, but I've always been proud of my heritage. I am more than black (and Native American and white), more than male, more heterosexual, and a helluva lot more than American. I'm a human being first and foremost, ya dig? However I am now excrutiatingly aware that there are some people that only see the color of my skin and nothing else. I am also aware of the general lack of identity the black man/woman has in this country. The fact that most other cultures and ethnic groups on this planet have defined me by a series of stereotypes, media icons (who do not represent me), and negative images pisses me off. Anytime a store in South Africa called Niggers sells "hip-hop" clothing there is a problem. Anytime a person, regardless of ethnic background, tells me that I "speak so well" there is a problem. Anytime a black man/woman tells me I'm listening to "white boy shit" in reference to Jimi Hendrix there is a problem.

The first time I was called a nigger, I was in the fourth grade. There is a fucking problem!!

I don't know what I'm going to do, but I have to do something. Things have to change and I have to do my part to change them. If we are not part of the solution then we are part of the problem. I don't mean being the next MLK or Rosa Parks (RIP). It doesn't take all of that and not everyone can be those people for whatever reason. Everyone can fight hatred and ignorance on a personal level daily. Stop saying "nigga" or any other variation on ANY ethnic slur, because that shit is NOT cool. Stop limiting the activites of girls in grade school and encourage them to be whatever the hell they want. Do not use the term faggot (or any variation) and learn about homosexuality to become comfortable about your own and other people's sexuality.

You know what, fuck it: Learn about other cultures PERIOD. That is the only way to remove ignorance and kill stereotypes. Education is the key damn it!

This negativity has to stop. That's where I'm at and that's how I feel.