snakeplissken

Well the black IPA I brewed the day before last seems to be very, very happy. It smells incredible when I open the fermenter and catch a big whiff. It smells very "dark malt" which is a hard aroma to describe unless you've had a lot of dark european lagers. Basically I'd call it a chocolate/molasses/candy clusterfuck. Very perfume like and nice. The hops are herbal and earthy but with a bit of floral and fruit undertones that should balance well. I think it will be a good black IPA unless I got a little too nuts with the dark malts. We'll see.

Strippies last night with Atomicant. Nothing like seeing strippers cavort and get awards for said cavorting. It was nice to get out of the house since I've been feeling in a funk. Maybe just the winter blues with a dash of loneliness added for spice, but either way it's had me down a while now. Really it's the anxiety of an uncertain future I think. That's one of the toughest things to deal with for me. I like to plan my life, but not to an obsessive level of detail though. Only a very rough path; a direction to go in at the very least. But hopefully things will work out.

All that matters is I'm trying pretty hard. Trying hard to be less awkward and more social. Trying to be more outside myself. Trying to care more for others. It tires me a lot, but I already know giving up doesn't work.