snakeplissken

I need more projects to distract me, but I don't know what to do.

Ran a couple of miles this morning. It's about the only thing that makes sense right now to me to do. I guess my theory is that physical pain will trump everything and it'll be the only thing I can feel, so I run until I hurt. I should try and train for a marathon or something. I need goals and to accomplish something so I don't constantly feel shitty about myself.

Withdrew from my candidacy for an internship in Commerce, ca doing quality control labwork. It was a good opportunity and something I was considering pursuing as a way to plan out my future, but that future has changed. Instead I plan on staying in state and working at the same plant as last summer. It was a lot of long hours and a big commute, but I don't mind at all. I need the distraction and I have no social life to ruin.

Spring break is at the end of March. I have a voucher for $275 through Alaskan Airlines, so maybe I'll take a short trip somewhere. I don't know, I really can't afford the other stuff like hotels and rental cars anymore, and I don't have any travel companions, so I might just let it expire. Traveling alone sucks.

I should brew but I lack the inspiration to come up with a good recipe. Nothing sounds tasty.