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She hits the blade with both hands high.
Downward is heavenward, and we are not alone.
Condensers on and the drop is found,
a fingertip trace says to me I can see you and you are wet.

A bed of dead leaves grace the ground,
a quick glance to the other side and we will not be found.
Symbionts in haste demand come close,
screams...
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Here you can be anything.
I think that scares you.
I've been here before but only by myself.
What giving up gives you and where giving up takes you.
I've had and I've been.
Here in center frame, there's only air.
Just enough space to fit.
I said it out loud over and over but what do I know.
I said it out loud but...
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in time of daffodils(who know
the goal of living is to grow)
forgetting why,remember how

in time of lilacs who proclaim
the aim of waking is to dream,
remember so(forgetting seem)

in time of roses(who amaze
our now and here with paradise)
forgetting if,remember yes

in time of all sweet things beyond
whatever mind may comprehend,
remember seek(forgetting find)

and in a mystery to be...
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watch the waves so far away
they're washing cross the paths that i have made

leaving all my sins i turn away
like soaring birds i watch my sorrows play

don't you know
i've left and gone away
you're knocking on the door i closed today
and everything looks brighter
the waves they just soothe my pain away

it felt so good to see the...
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gee i like to think of dead it means nearer because deeper firmer
since darker than little round water at one end of the well it's
too cool to be crooked and it's too firm to be hard but it's sharp
and thick and it loves, every old thing falls in rosebugs and
jackknives and kittens and pennies they all sit there looking at
each...
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so last night i told my wife i'm leaving this town, for real. She knew i was thinking about it but i don't think she believed it would actually happen.. But she's been gone from our home for 2 years. And she's all i've known for the past 8 years. so yeah, my mind is a little fucked up right now...
But she knew it...
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I'm thinking of a number between everything and two
she said you can find a space between my arms if you will stay
like if we ignore the system they'll just blink out and quickly go away
she said I'll keep all the signals that you send home to me
and I'll meet you back here on the ground
it's lift off, lift off again...
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This is for my only real friend? She's mad at me.. And I don't understand why... and christ, not like whom will read this anyway.. so I turn to the words of another:

"For Me This Is Heaven"

The first star I see may not be a star.
We can't do a thing but wait.
So let's wait for one more.
The time such clumsy...
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I feel i've been lied to and made a fool for entertainment's sake? Hope it's my own self doubt and whatnot? so shprick.. Not like whom will read this anyway.