I'm kinda living on nicotine, taurine, alcohol and chocolate at the minute.
Sometimes I'm my worst own enemy doing stuff that beats me up physically and in turn emotionally.
It's kinda like this:
When I regularly drink and smoke too much, I get seriously lethargy.
The frustration of feeling lethargic and drifting through life brings on a downer state which in turn reduces my appetite and my will to sleep to zero.
I get moody and depressed due to lack of sleep and my energy levels drop even lower because I'm not eating properly.
I drink Red Bull like there's no tomorrow to try and perk me up, but instead it simply turns me in to some snapping restless animal.
I get pissed off with myself for feeling and acting the way I do; my self esteem plummets and I deal out the blame to various people like a deck of cards in some twisted poker game, entering the world of the unfair and unjust.
Luckily, something usually happens that wrenches me outta this dark place and injects some positivity back in me and it's back to normal.
...I'm just worried that one day I'll slip down so low I'll be outta reach...
Sometimes I'm my worst own enemy doing stuff that beats me up physically and in turn emotionally.
It's kinda like this:
When I regularly drink and smoke too much, I get seriously lethargy.
The frustration of feeling lethargic and drifting through life brings on a downer state which in turn reduces my appetite and my will to sleep to zero.
I get moody and depressed due to lack of sleep and my energy levels drop even lower because I'm not eating properly.
I drink Red Bull like there's no tomorrow to try and perk me up, but instead it simply turns me in to some snapping restless animal.
I get pissed off with myself for feeling and acting the way I do; my self esteem plummets and I deal out the blame to various people like a deck of cards in some twisted poker game, entering the world of the unfair and unjust.
Luckily, something usually happens that wrenches me outta this dark place and injects some positivity back in me and it's back to normal.
...I'm just worried that one day I'll slip down so low I'll be outta reach...