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Ok, so here's a video I just saw that is totally blog-worthy.
Apologies for the lack of any meaningful discussion.
I might add to it later or post a new one (but I think I'm posting this video along with it for a while... it's awesome)

Even when I sleep, I don't.

I feel my mask slowly slipping.
I don't think I'm fooling myself anymore.
I'm scared of what's been hiding underneath.


Here's a Billy Joel themed Haiku that is pretty descriptive of me right now.

We all have a face
We hide away forever
The stranger inside

Yeah so that blog was ridiculous and I'm kind of an ass for writing it.
Sorry to anybody that was curious about it and you have no idea how much I appreciate the concern.

Suffice it to say, that I've made some mistakes and I have to atone for them. That's a very vague explanation I realize but I'm sorry, it wouldn't be fair to...
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I really need to get this off my chest. I'll spoiler it so I don't offend anybody.

So now for a haiku.

Things moving away
You try to hold on to them
You try but you...
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Ok, time for a new one.

NOTICE: I added a new profile pic. I got a nice compliment on it from somebody so I figured why not.
I guess some people haven't seen my whole face if they weren't in chat back when I was still frequenting it. I forget that sometimes.

From 7PM Saturday until 7AM Sunday, I watched Zombie movies. It was amazing....
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Thanks to the people that posted last night or IMed me.
I appreciate it.

I think I'll be alright, just need to power through.

I hate this.
I don't know why I go through these things.
Why can't I just stay happy?
It's not like anything happened differently to make me shift...

I think I need to sleep.
I wish I could.

So, I think on the whole, I'm getting better at all this stuff. I still catch myself slipping occasionally, but I'm pretty happy most of the time (pretty much all of it actually). And I'm ok with that .

I'm still wicked introspective and that gets annoying every now and then, and I still have some bad habits that I'd like to iron out, but...
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Hey, so I guess I need a new blog... it's certainly been a while.
I guess I feel more like blogging when I'm feeling down soo... take silence as a good thing? I guess?

Obviously I've still been on the site quite a bit, and made some new friends I like this.
New friends, you are cool. That is all. Sorry I can't make a...
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Quite enough of that I think.
Just in case anybody was worried I wasn't exactly upset when I wrote that. Just a bit introspective
(Ha "just a bit introspective" story of my life)

Well I think that the people I wanted to see that have seen it by this point. If not? Well I guess I'll get around to that eventually. I'm not deleting it...
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A very special person has brought something very important to my attention.
If I've ever given anyone the impression that I didn't care about them, I sincerely apologize. This was in no way my intention and I will make some serious efforts to be more sensitive in the future.

I truly hope that people believe me when I say that my actions were perhaps not...
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Ok, so here's what I've decided. Just now.

If you have something that's upsetting you or something going wrong, I am more than willing to listen to you and offer advice. Or just listen. Or whatever. I love helping people, but I have to understand people don't always want help from me.

What I think messes me up is when I've helped someone and then...
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