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Sooooo... here we goooooo.....
2:16 AM. Can't sleep due to lack of my medications. It's two nights in a row now. Shitty deal. The pharmisist close to my place is a bitch-head. She wouldn't let my bf pick my meds up because they are a controlled substance. He had his ID and I have sent him there before to pick them up. Soooo stupid. So now... I gues one of these days when I have time I will have to go down there and be like look biatch...... give me my damn pills before I go pshyco on your ass. I can't sit here and sweat, puke and type at the same time, but my mind is racing 1,000mph and I can't stop thinking.

I am moving soon.... really soon and I don't have a clue what I am going to do. I have to sell all my furniture, find a truck to load boxes in, find a place to live, shit out the money to afford all this and hope my new job is as cool as I think it will be. If this job doesn't work out... I am fucked. I will be thousands of miles from home, family and friends. I will have no money....... and probably no desire to live.

I hope I get to meet some SG memebers in VA. That would make me feal a bit more comfortable and at home. Knowing that there is someone there that I can talk to or relate to in the slightest.

I have learned from my recent trip to VA that people on the East coast are tonz different than people here on the West.
Rednecks here are bull riden' cow stearin big trashy truck owners and most live in trailors or thier parents back yards.
Rednecks out there...... whew... are bango twangin, chew spittin, roadkill eatin inbread sheep fuckers.

It's really wierd. Just blows my mind. I am sure I can get used to it. I was born and raised in a pretty small town with shit loads of uncles, aunties, cousins and what not. All living in the same town it kinda makes you feel a little more redneck white trash then you want to admit. I have had cousins who I never even knew before end up being my neighbors and crazy shit like that.

I am kinda glad to get far far away from them now.
I am crossing my fingers that it works out.
You never know till you try..... and if I fail then... I will be one of those people who have to come back to town and admit I fucked up. But if I don't go, I will be one of the hundreds of people that live and die in this town and never know what its like anywhere else.
I think I would rather get out of here and try rather than stay and sit on my ass wishing to win the lottery or something.

Man, I am going to miss all my friends... all two of them......
and my sea stars......... I hate to leave them here. I grew up with them, they are my most closest bestest friends and I think they know that. If it wasn't for them I wouldn't be here today, I would either be 6 feet under the dirt or locked up with the loonies. And that's the truth....

To all the people I love... I will miss... my mommas and pappas my brothers and sea stars.... my ninja stars..... and love buddies. The people I like to chat with and stay close with.....
So many things to think about. So little time..........

I made some panties today..... or just customized some I got from the store. Really cute and funny..... I will put pix up later.

Also pix of my soon to be old place and my soon to be new place.

*back to puking and sweating*
goodnightymorning