My Heart Is Fucking Breaking 
!!!!
Tomarrow im going to have to say good bye to my beloved Pugster Zoe'.
After ALOT Of Consideriation I Came to the realization that just because i want a dog does not nessarly mean that i make a good dog owner.
Don't get me wrong For I Love this dog with all of my heart And i am crying buckets Right Now as i write this out.
But Unfortuniatly My Life and work schedual take far more attention than i had ever thought befor and suddenly i realised just how much my lil dog was being left all alone at home while i was off being busy with my life...
As i was allways with her daily the time togather was just so limited with 10 min walks in the morning and 20 min one's in the evening But Hell with me working 8 to 10 hr day's..
I took her to doggie day care and she would allways come home completely freaked out from having spent the entire day being harrassed by All the other dog's not to mention how she hates hanging out with other dog's to begin with....
She's just a people pooch Thats All.
So the thought of paying a dog walker to just come & give her another quickie 20 min walk In The afternoon dident make Much sence to me when all she really wants is someome who's around all the time.
So she ended up hanging out at home again...
Beleave me it tears me apart to know that she was allways there just wating for me to come home And giver her the attention she so desperiatly Wanted from me
Though My Absence was Not For lack of love Mind You but rather maturity and the ability to ballance my life accordingly.... And BTW It was Most definatly a shitty realization to have to come to!!!
Though Fortuniatly for the Both of us My Best friends mother who works out of her house and is home all of the time has been Dieing to take zoe' for the longest time.
Her last pug lived to be 14 and she absolutly Loves the breed not to mention my Zoe'.
Anyways Now she'll be living on Three acres of land out on Lopez Island With Ton's of lovin And Attention 24/7
So there you have it My Life in a nut shell My Heart is Breaking and a part of Me is about to go away~ So untill it heals it's self and the pain subsides This journal will just have to waite....
Now Here's a few of my favorite memories~
!!!!
Tomarrow im going to have to say good bye to my beloved Pugster Zoe'.
After ALOT Of Consideriation I Came to the realization that just because i want a dog does not nessarly mean that i make a good dog owner.
Don't get me wrong For I Love this dog with all of my heart And i am crying buckets Right Now as i write this out.
But Unfortuniatly My Life and work schedual take far more attention than i had ever thought befor and suddenly i realised just how much my lil dog was being left all alone at home while i was off being busy with my life...
As i was allways with her daily the time togather was just so limited with 10 min walks in the morning and 20 min one's in the evening But Hell with me working 8 to 10 hr day's..
I took her to doggie day care and she would allways come home completely freaked out from having spent the entire day being harrassed by All the other dog's not to mention how she hates hanging out with other dog's to begin with....
She's just a people pooch Thats All.
So the thought of paying a dog walker to just come & give her another quickie 20 min walk In The afternoon dident make Much sence to me when all she really wants is someome who's around all the time.
So she ended up hanging out at home again...
Beleave me it tears me apart to know that she was allways there just wating for me to come home And giver her the attention she so desperiatly Wanted from me
Though My Absence was Not For lack of love Mind You but rather maturity and the ability to ballance my life accordingly.... And BTW It was Most definatly a shitty realization to have to come to!!!
Though Fortuniatly for the Both of us My Best friends mother who works out of her house and is home all of the time has been Dieing to take zoe' for the longest time.
Her last pug lived to be 14 and she absolutly Loves the breed not to mention my Zoe'.
Anyways Now she'll be living on Three acres of land out on Lopez Island With Ton's of lovin And Attention 24/7
So there you have it My Life in a nut shell My Heart is Breaking and a part of Me is about to go away~ So untill it heals it's self and the pain subsides This journal will just have to waite....
Now Here's a few of my favorite memories~
That dog is so effin cute...
edited to say: I am giving away my ferret Bub... after 7 long years I am now too busy to be his mom, a proper mom, and I am giving him to a friend who I know will love and care for him, and he'll even have a ferret playmate. He'll be happier and that's what matters.
[Edited on Sep 13, 2004 5:09PM]
You are doing the right thing, though. I'm not sure where Lopez Island is, but maybe you could go and visit?
It's better for Zoe, so just try to focus on that.
Hope you feel better.