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I bought a car and thus began the nightmares where I can't pay my bills.

I am really so tired of being such a childless mom. I plan and plan and plan. Crazy planning. I plan long term, extremely long term. I tell Eric my plans and he gets this little smile on his face that says "my god, that is SO far in the future."

I'm sure the planning isn't necessarily a bad thing. But goddamn, it's so obsessive sometimes.

I opened an investment account yesterday, after lots of planning and research. Not a bad thing, I know. We need to start saving for the future, we want a house, kids and stuff.

See there I go again.

I dunno what happened, maybe it was when I turned 27, or maybe when I moved out of my ex's, but suddenly everything became like a mission to me.

Hmm, maybe my brain is just bored. Not being in school, not having to do a lot of critical thinking for my last few jobs. Maybe my brain is in overdrive because it needs something to do.

I wish it would let me take a break now and then.