hello all!
so, i have a pretty ridiculous week but the good news is that all the shit has been bothering me has finally been resolved. and of course it was some dumb shit involving a guy. i thought we were on the same level as to how we felt for each other but apparently i was wrong. this was the first time in probably 4 years that i have truly put my heart and soul into guy. as sad as it is for me to say this but i didn't even give my last boyfriend of over 2 years that much of me. but i was a fool and kept hoping that he would come around. i was hearing everything that i thought was leading up to what would be something great but today i realized that would never happen. i guess he wasn't ready for the love that i was ready give and have in return. there is nothing more heartbreaking than putting it all out there and being so vulnerable to someone like that and then in the end get treated with such disrespect. being hung up on and being treated like a high school kid is just asinine. we are both adults and the situation should be handled as such.
as much as this hurts and have cried and will continue to feel sorry for myself and wine and be cranky... i am at least glad that i will not be beating myself over wondering if "today is the day he will come around".
my birthday is on saturday! woo! the big 25...
i am hoping for the best. it is time to start thinking about me and stop beating myself up over something that is never going to happen. and what better week to do it in? 
oh, friday night at the bar was disco hell again so i dressed up. i was going more for the studio 54 ridiculous off the wall look.. i know it isn't really the look that was around but i did it anyway.
ok, i am going to try to get some sleep considering my crappy day
hope you have a good week and that your weekend was awesome!
oxox
sin
so, i have a pretty ridiculous week but the good news is that all the shit has been bothering me has finally been resolved. and of course it was some dumb shit involving a guy. i thought we were on the same level as to how we felt for each other but apparently i was wrong. this was the first time in probably 4 years that i have truly put my heart and soul into guy. as sad as it is for me to say this but i didn't even give my last boyfriend of over 2 years that much of me. but i was a fool and kept hoping that he would come around. i was hearing everything that i thought was leading up to what would be something great but today i realized that would never happen. i guess he wasn't ready for the love that i was ready give and have in return. there is nothing more heartbreaking than putting it all out there and being so vulnerable to someone like that and then in the end get treated with such disrespect. being hung up on and being treated like a high school kid is just asinine. we are both adults and the situation should be handled as such.
as much as this hurts and have cried and will continue to feel sorry for myself and wine and be cranky... i am at least glad that i will not be beating myself over wondering if "today is the day he will come around".
my birthday is on saturday! woo! the big 25...
i am hoping for the best. it is time to start thinking about me and stop beating myself up over something that is never going to happen. and what better week to do it in? oh, friday night at the bar was disco hell again so i dressed up. i was going more for the studio 54 ridiculous off the wall look.. i know it isn't really the look that was around but i did it anyway.
ok, i am going to try to get some sleep considering my crappy day
hope you have a good week and that your weekend was awesome!
oxox
sin
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Myself: I'm a sadd phrogg because I can't come to Charleston on Wednesday!!!! I have to miss you and my lil sister Addison and the rest. Bumma! The economy has never sucked so hard. And it's been bad on me. I told Addison I want to try to plan an alternative get together - maybe in Columbia - so Ilectra can be there. I'll let you know.