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A little better today...there's something to be said for quiet resolve. That and I'm pretty numb to the pain at the moment.
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shewulf:
Numb to the pain. What pain. I know what its like to be in pain. All kinds of pain. If you need someone to talk to I'm always here to listen. kiss
shewulf:
Yeah I thought it was rose but i checked all her photo's. babygirl is right it is Nala makes me happy to finally have figured that out. Anyways so how are you doing today?
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I hate this.
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fleur:
Relationship troubles are hard, but they can hopefully be worked through. Thanks for the comment on my set!
thejuanupsman:
shit I hate when other people feel bad. Hope you are felling better. I know you don't know me but if you want to vent feel free. I certainly find that it helps me.
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So, today it starts. What will come of it I certainly don't know. I know what I hope, and I know what I want, but none of that really matters right now...it's out of my hands and all I can do is wait.
_sarah_:
What starts?

You're being vague. tongue
_sarah_:
Oh. I guess I just thought you were already waiting, wondering, hoping, and so on.
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Yup. And so Friday it begins. I hope I make it through...and I hope everything comes out for the best .

In other news, I quit my band.

In even more news, I have contacts now...and a new hole in my right ear (well, the first one there actually).
_sarah_:
Re: band - Thank fucking god.

How are the contacts working out?
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What a crazy few days. The girl came up for the weekend to stay with me and watch my band play. The gig was ok...not good, not bad, just ok.

The girl seemed genuinely happy to see me and be around me and stuff. Which, is kinda weird actually because she's not very open with her emotions and stuff.

Saturday was a rough day, we...
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shewulf:
awe sounds like she has had a rough life. I hope that things get better for her....I stopped by to say hello and see how you were doing. I managed to get my laptop out and get on to see how everyone was doing before i go in for my test tomorrow....anyways....take care smile
ovida:
Awww, craptacular. Here, I will mail you a box of kittens. Kitten make everything better...or better yet, robot kittens I will send robot
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Ok, I forgot how much fun piercing is...since the last time I did it was like 12 years ago. Trying to figure out where to put the next hole. Probably my other ear for now...thinking about doing my nipples but I'll have to get smaller needles cuz they're just too small for a 14g.

Girl is coming up this weekend. My band is playing at...
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_sarah_:
Do the other ear. It's good for balance, and you can wear matching gauged earrings in both ears while still using the other hole for studs of your choosing. I have four piercings in my ears. I just never use the top two 'cause they fucked them up (I was 16 when I got them). I need to redo those and get one at the top of my ear, in the cartilage.

I wuv needles.
corug7:
Prince Albert!!!

Oh come on, you puss!

Yeah, I wouldn't either.
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Well, the weekend was interesting. Got drunk and played video games friday night. Saturday I went to my bro's and then sat around all day doing lots of nothing. Sunday, well, that was a day...the girl missed her flight out of NY so had to sit there on standby all day...finally got on a plane that dropped her at Metro at 9:15. One problem, she...
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corug7:
I did mine with a needle and a carrot. That was after the time in the mens' room at Hooters in Flint with the self-piercing hoop before the Pantera/Zombie/Deftones concert when I hit a nerve and went deaf and blind and almost passed out...

Seriously.

[Edited on May 04, 2004 8:07PM]
_sarah_:
Dude! That's awesome.

Oh, and corug7 and I probably ran into each other 100 times while at NMU. He and I exchanged email, and it turns out he knew most of my close friends. He asked if I knew you.

Tiny fucking world, eh?
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Hrm, wednesday and nothing exciting going on.

My band decided that we had to book a last minute gig, so I had to cancel plans for the weekend of the 7th, I love doing that. And the best part was the "dude, it pays" line, to which I said "how much" and to which I got a reply that was totally unsatisfactory. Gah.
_sarah_:
They need to find a new drummer to jack around.
_sarah_:
Good for you. It's so not worth it. You aren't making enough, the gigs suck most of the time, Randy can't schedule or negotiate for shit... it's all stuff you've known.

You can do so much better. smile
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Weekend was pretty cool. Managed to spend a night with my friends and not get drunk....I was the most sober person there that drank at all (and there was only one person that didn't drink...but she's pregnant so she has an excuse).

Saw the girl Saturday/Sunday...that was nice. Things are going ok there. I'm always afraid that it will end at any moment...I am way...
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_sarah_:
Leena... Leena... Is she the really cute girl Kurt knows from school? The one he thinks looks like Christina Ricci?

As far as the girl goes, just remember that moderation is good in all things. You're getting the drinking down, now get the loving down. You know that comfortable in a hurry is bad, and so is serious in a hurry. You said it yourself, last year, that distance can prove to be a good thing since it means not rushing. We fucked that up, so here's another good chance. biggrin It's all about the learning.
_sarah_:
Well then I hope it turns out okay. smile I know you met her at an odd time, and it's so stressful, but as you said to me long ago... if it's going to work, you'll find a way.

I think you two can figure something out. You're both intelligent. Good luck. smile
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Weekend was good. The week has so far sucked. Grrr. Issues everywhere, always hitting me in the face or mocking me and flipping me off. Whatever.

Wish things would just spontaneously be great, but that'll never happen. The process is, of course, slow and painful...and the end result may not even be great.

I think I need to quit drinking...I'm getting to where I don't...
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_sarah_:
Or entire weekends, as the case may be. I can't count how many times I'd come home and have to recap the weekend and what we'd talked about. It was like we went on a first date every week or hit the reset button or something. Frustrating as hell, I tell you, and I don't think Cari will want to deal with that. I doubt she has as much patience as I did. wink smile
_sarah_:
I sent you some email with some thoughts. Have a fun weekend. smile
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Long time since I updated...just been busy. Things are going well with the girl. She left today to go home to Colorodo for the weekend. Some stuff to take care of there. It's one of my old college buddies birthdays this weekend so a bunch of us are going to k-zoo to celebrate with him. Hopefully I don't suffer the same fate as I did...
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ash:
I love kalamazoo, a lot of really cool ppl live in that town! I used to take the train there from chicago every weekend just to hang with some cool ppl and get away from the big city life. Hope u have fun, and as always, dont behave.
Why did u get kicked out of the bar anyways? Or do I not want to know? hehehe wink
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Wow. A week of pain and the unknown...wondering if anything was worth it and wondering what would happen. A weekend of awesome. Giving answers to some questions, bringing up more. Have not felt happier than this in a long time...have not been more sad. But, the sadness is only because we're not together at the moment...but we will be again soon.
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vampireninja:
I hope things clear up.
corug7:
What up. Hope you are. Tell you what. Next time you are in GR, bring your drum kit. My buddy will strum and I'll strip naked and scream like a motherfucker outside this chick's window. Would that help? I do a good Danzig...