Wednesday Jul 14, 2004

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I just don't understand. I try to straighten things in my life out and then BAM, thy get all wonky again. I think I'll just quit trying and go with the flow.
_sarah_:
Like you'd ever let something defeat you... wink

Friday Jul 09, 2004

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Going to go watch my old band tonight. Should be interesting.
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ash:
It makes me really fuckin sad to hear abt ur friend payin child support, ACTUALLY WANTING to be a part of that kids life, and he doesnt have rights. I had a gf that tried to pull that shit on her ex and it wasnt even ABOUT the kid, it was all abt HER GETTING REVENGE on her ex. I hate how ppl use their children as pawns against each other, it makes me so fired up I cant stand it.
PPl should be HAPPY if their exxes pay and want to participate, they have no idea how lucky they really are.
shewulf:
Yeah I think I would want to come back as a Polar bear or something big and fuzzy.

Thursday Jul 08, 2004

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If I believed in reincarnation I would so end this run at life now and try again.
_sarah_:
But you wouldn't get this life again... You'd come back in a new shell. skull
shewulf:
You wouldnt want to start life over, but Sorcha's right you wouldnt come back in the same life you would come back as like a goat or a seagull or something. I know how you feel i would love to go back in time and start everything over from maybe age 14

Wednesday Jul 07, 2004

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Don't you love when you discover that a large chunk of what you believed is total bullshit.
_sarah_:
No. I hated it. Cowardly liars suck ass.

What's going on?

Tuesday Jul 06, 2004

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What the fuck happened to my life?
_sarah_:
You'd remember if you didn't drink so much. wink tongue

How was camping? Did you get soaked on Sunday? Gaylord got a ton of rain.

Thursday Jul 01, 2004

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Leaving today to go up north adn get the fuck out of here...hopefully to forget and have some fun.
shewulf:
Have fun up north. I'm going to go up north today after work. Going to oscoda with my family for the fourth of july.

Tuesday Jun 29, 2004

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Sometimes you don't want to wake up, and then you wish you hadn't and spend all day wishing you were back in bed...and then when you get to bed you wonder why you are there...and remember that it's because being awake sucks.
_sarah_:
I wrote something like this many journals ago. It never showed up online. This is from a private, handwritten journal.

*digs for it*
*trips on shoes*
*swears*

Here it is!

'What happens when you're having the best dream of your life, and then you realize it is your life? The difference is that you can have a dream again. You can't always have DreamLife again.

Those precious moments in time when my dreams blurred with reality are gone, and now all I wish for is to fall asleep.

I can't fall asleep, though, because then the nightmares come. I call them this because the happiness of the DreamLife invades my dreams and makes me wake up, shaking, because it's no longer reality. My waking life is the nightmare, but I don't want to sleep because of the bittersweet "realities" presented in my dreams. I can't stay up. I can't sleep.

Where do I go? What do you do when the one person who helped you sleep peacefully is the one poking sticks into the clouds? What do you do when the one person you could cry upon is the one making you cry?'

This isn't me trying to help. This isn't me putting words into your mouth. This is me simply being me, for all it's worth.

*hugs you even though it will piss you off*

kiss

Thursday Jun 24, 2004

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I don't know.
ash:
Lol!! I dont either man. I feel ya.

what type of music do u play when u play drums? Im gonna guess metal of some kind, u seem metalish. Are u currently in a band?
_sarah_:
I see today is the "fateful" day. If things go badly, IM or beep me if you want to vent or talk or anything. I might not be home or able to get to the phone, but I do care and will get a hold of you as soon as I can.

I do, of course, hope things go well. You deserve happiness.

Tuesday Jun 22, 2004

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You know you've lost when you just don't care anymore, when all the fight has left and you wait silently for your fate.
_sarah_:
Sounds like we're both having that kind of day. blackeyed

Seriously. We need to get shitfaced and tell the world to fuck off while doing so. I do pride myself on being a great friend. It makes up for being a sucky girlfriend. smile

Sunday Jun 20, 2004

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Friday was drunken...I forgot. Last night I didn't drink and therefore didn't forget...and being the last one awake (as usual) cried myself to sleep.
_sarah_:
Oh honey... frown
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