silvercharmer

Thanks for the responses. I do feel a little bad because she went and did something really nice for me for my birthday and then it's her birthday and I don't suck it up.

I have a feeling that by trying to avoid a fight by walking away, I may have started a fight. We'll see. I did text her this morning to apologize for just dipping out. I was drunk and irritated and walked away without really thinking. I am so freaking grateful to my friend Chris for being awake and letting me crash on his couch. That would have been one expensive ass cab ride home!!

So, my friend Chenelle picked me up and we went to church and lunch, then I went straight to my van and work. It's been one long ass day, but church was so worth it!

I've been realizing how much I have forgotten what is really important to me. I have been allowing myself to be distracted and rather than focusing on good and positive things, I've been gossiping and shit talking. My heart hasn't really been in a very positive place in the last few months. I'm partying too much and just being much more negative than I should be.

I need a break. This semester has kicked my ass, mentally and emotionally. I've been kicking my own ass by forgetting what's important and allowing my whims to rule me. As much as I love my #1, I need to focus on me again. I need to remember why I want this degree and where I want to go in life.

Anywho, that's really all that's going on. But I definitely know one thing... I need to spend more time at home.

Besos!
Aimee

From the very beginning of last night. Ruben, Alicia and me.