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silvan415

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Member Since 2004

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Monday May 09, 2005

May 9, 2005
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Son of a lesbian. How do I come out? What do I do to come out?

My mind feels like its breaking into several shards. I'm watching L word and its bringing back my childhood.

Is my gender identity merely a spawn of the contradictions I was raised with?

How much did being called "Man-cub" every time her friends were around affect me.

Was it that I always felt like this, and I am only just now responding to it?

Am I transgender, do I wish to be a woman? Am I actually a woman?

I'm getting an eternity knot between my shoulderblades. I'm going to do this soon. I'm going to do it only by contributions from my friends - none of my own money.

Everything is connected...but, I feel as if, for me, everything is fragments, dust. I can't hold on to anything. Part of me likes it this way.

maybe the first time in my life I'm being honest with myself.

I love the female body but, I cannot be a straight man.

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