silentwhisper

I must say, when it comes to relationships I am the don juan of dumb decisions or the don juan of 'those who cant be had'. I seem to have the uncanny ability to only fall for a girl if she's fucked up/troubled, taken or about to move out of the state. If I ever have a gf who lives less than hundreds of miles away it will be the day hell freezes over. Of course I dont know if I should blame myself entirly, I cant seem to find a girl here who's interested in dating me, so why not see if I cant go and find another girl to tell me "I wish u lived closer". Im not much for superstition, believing in 'signs' or anything but Im starting to think maybe I should. Ive always wanted to know how far I could get in the 'soldiering' or warrior realm of elite groups. Maybe I cant find a girl cause having a relationship would be dumb if I were persuing that.

Boredom will kill you. mentally and physically. so Im dying right now.
come the end of summer I wont be here. I dont know where I will be, but it will not be here.

my mood could probably be summed up with 'fuck love, its over rated' crossed with i want to be in a situation that is pushing me rather than boring me to within an inch of my life. whatever you'd call that.