I finally made it here.
I ventured through the harshest conditions to come to you in this place.
I walked barefoot across seas of broken, jagged glass.
I sweated and suffered heat stroke as I crossed over many different flows of molten lava.
Blistered hands from rowing non-stop across the four rivers, one by one and my hands bloody and sore.
I endured the slings and arrows of those that oppose or hate me as I traveled here.
I put up with the endless name calling and chastising as I approached.
Never once did I waver in my conviction to make it to this remote locale.
All in an effort to see you once more.
I braved the highest cliffs as I hung on for dear life whilst climbing higher and higher.
My legs, feeling like rubber and as if they were filled with lead to weigh them down at the same time from walking many miles.
Dying of thirst as not one drop of water was afforded me on my journey here.
Covered in the injuries and insult of the culmination of all of the aforementioned tribulations.
My mind, in shambles after running this gauntlet of mental and physical terrors.
I won't ever be the same, I must admit and accept that going forward from here.
But nonetheless, I made it here.
I fought countless contenders, trading blows with them over and over again until I stood atop the pile of those exhausted others.
Battered and bloody, I stand before you.
I am in a muddled state of both anguish and ecstasy now that this moment in time has finally come to fruition.
I came all this way for you.
All this way to tell and show you just exactly how much this interaction is necessary to me.
The dedication, the discipline and the energy expended to buy me this moment now.
All to say this one thing to you and to show you the sum total of everything I went through to say this.
A true testament to my trials to get here.
Just to say these words.
"You were someone whom entered my life and in that moment, my life was irrevocably changed. Changed in ways that I could never imagine and never fathomed would effect me in such unanticipated ways. All of these things that changed when first we met were indeed a curse upon my person and my sanity. I could die right here and now knowing that you now see just how badly I needed to show and tell you just how awful you truly were and continue to be. There is no saving or helping you. You will never change. But I cut you out of my life like a diseased piece of my flesh that would have killed me entirely. I can without a doubt say, I am finally healed after telling you these facts and that you hold no sway in my mind whatsoever. May my determination show that I endured all of this to show you just how much you must be reviled if I went through all of this just to say so. You were never really here to begin with. I saw that finally, and now you must see it too."
I close my eyes and I collapse on the floor that is both cold and feels as if I'm lying of a bed of feathers even though it's mere rock.
When I recover, this will all fade into obsolescence as if it never happened.
I will carry those scars and mental trauma though for all time so I never forget.
So I never forget the sweet and heady release of removing you from my mind and life.
Erasing you from my entire being and having the slate clean for the rest of my days.
