So Thursday, I left a status update that I "might not be back for a while." At that time I was in a very depressed state of mind, that happens often even though I am always positive and try to be nothing but supportive on site. Having said that as a prelude, I will say that sometimes, when those depressive moods hit, it is because I am not yet aware that I am getting physically ill in some manner. It sounds weird but I know others out there have the same thing that happens (I hope I'm not the only one!) where you get irritable or depressed and then within 24 or so hours you're full on physically sick with something. That is exactly what happened after I left that last update on Thursday of last week except it happened faster than the usual 24ish hours and happened later that same night on Thursday. I came down with a really shitty and severe case of Pneumonia and I am still recovering though, I am much better than I was last week and even better than I was once released from the hospital on Monday around noon.
So the hospital was necessary because on Thursday night, I had a fever that had come on out of nowhere and was at 104.5 degrees by the time I called an ambulance to come get me because I was so delirious from the fever. Yes, at 104.5 degrees that is sort of life threatening I know. Upon arrival at the hospital, I was stripped down to nothing and shoved into an ice bath with a popsicle jammed in my mouth as well to hopefully break said fever. It appeared to work after 40 god damned minutes in that fucking ice. My temperature went down but I wasn't done unfortunately. A few hours later on the same night, my fever came back and skyrocketed to 105.9 and that is very much in the temperature range of being able to cause permanent brain damage and death of course. So I was thrust back into another ice bath where I remained for another 30 minutes and my fever finally went down to an acceptable but still troubling 101-102 degrees. No longer life threatening but the fever hadn't officially broken in the second ice bath either. Needless to say I kept that low grade fever for all of Friday, Saturday and most of Sunday when it finally went back down to regular body temperature. I was then discharged as I said above, on Monday around noon.
So I think I was getting depressed (this time.) on Thursday not due to my mental illness issues with depression and other thing but because I was getting physically ill and just hadn't noticed anything physical yet. I assume that's why I left the status update of not coming around for a while in the first place. I didn't know it would be accurate in the sense that later that night, I would end up in the hospital with a case of walking pneumonia and a nearly deadly fever.
So that's all over with thankfully although I am still sick and recovering from the pneumonia and while I've lost the fever completely, I am still resting for the most part and staying hydrated. Thank you to those of you who reached out on Thursday on site, and those of you that were able to reach me that night before my phone died at the hospital late that night or the next morning on Friday or once I left the hospital on Monday (yesterday of course.). It was appreciated and you are all loved by me for being amazing friends!
So, once I am back at full strength, I will be back and will resume normal "SilentObjectorX programming" on my page here. I owe you all some creative writing and music posts. Much love to everyone and thank you to those of you that missed me as well. You're all amazing and fantastic people!
I can't wait to be back at full strength and resume my usual habits on site. Until then, may you all have a fantastic day, rest of the week in case I'm not back before then fully and also a fantastic upcoming weekend even though it's only Tuesday right now. I hope to be back sooner than the upcoming weekend, health permitting but until I feel better it'll only be me logging in for a few minutes a day to just make sure my notifications don't pile up like crazy and things like that. Much love and respect to all of you.
