silentobjector

i've just lost someone near and very dear to my heart......it's now tattered and in ruins.....i'm completely desolate and afraid of the future.....something's different now.....i'm totally aching for their words and they don't come......we are now afraid to be ourselves......now scared of saying the things that made us once happy with each other......i'm drowning in this feeling.......and i'm not going to return to my normal state of mind for quite some time now.....i know this....i feel it welling up inside me.......and it hurts for the first time in ages......so painful and very acute......i can't help but describe this for you all now........so if you see me walking down the street in town or downtown.....with a bottle in one hand and a cigarette hanging loosely from my lips.....it's sadness......not coolness ok? i've said all i can.......forgive me for the sappy entry folks......i just don't have the will to fight it now.......

without you i'm nothing my dear friend.......

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