sigma

Mood: Livid
Music: Alanis Morissette - Jaggid Little Pill



Okay, this is me freaking the fuck out.

I've just been fucked in the ass by God herself with a strap-on!

My army date was in August. EVER FUCKING THING I'VE PLANNED IN MY LIFE WAS PREDICATED UPON THAT FACT AND EVERYONE IN THE FUCKING COUNTRY TOLD ME THAT THAT PARTICULAR FACT COULD NOT CHANGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And it just fucking did.

I just got a single note in the mail from the army saying that my entry to the service has been moved officially to december.



shit shit shit shit shit SHIT!

You don't UNDERSTAND!!! I just sign a contract yesterday for the most fucking pimp ass flat I've ever seen. PEFECT LOCATION. FUCKING PERFECT!!!!

And not only is this looking like it's not going to work now, but also I might not even be able to move in with my sister Sara now. And Sara would have been THE PERFECT flat mate for me.

And then there is the matter of my great-grandparents and grandparents which are all not in the greatest of health and the fact that as soon as I get out of the army I am moving back to be with all of them for as long as I can.

And then there is the big picture. In the big picture I was just about to subject myself to a combat unit and extreme macho-ass bullshit the likes of which I've never known. Extreme fucking physical training and all that. Not now. Now I have enough time to make certain that I get into one of the armies computer unit. Which means I'll get whatever corporate IT job I want after the army. Which means my life will not be as chilled out as I was planning but I will make more money.

And the most important thing to me has always been money; which is exactly what I was trying to fix by NOT going down this path. But now I will; already an inevitable course of actions has been lain down for me.

GODFUCKDAMNIT!!! Why does she always do this to me?! There must be a God, because who else is doing all this shit to me, huh???