sicka

So my family came home last night around like, 11:30, which is nice but I really like it when they're not here. Except for the fact that I have to babysit their animals.

I don't know why but this girl who always seems to start shit has started to talk to me again. I took quite a long hiatus from interaction with her, only because I knew I would bust her kneecaps/skull if I didn't. I can't handle drama. It annoys me to no end. I'd rather just kill that person and be done with it. Haha

My guitarist went to the warped tour yesterday, which will probably mean he will come home and want to practice sometime soon. Weird things inspire him. He's been talking about bringing in another drummer while Eddie is away which I wouldn't like too much. I think the person he would be bringing in is Ben, and Ben is sort of immature. He and I don't get along much anymore. It's because I called stuff that he thought was "cool" (i.e. making fun of people you don't know, destorying property all because someone told you to do it) stupid.

I haven't written in a really long time. I wish I could. I have 4 songs to write lyrics to and my head isn't in the right place to write anything as of lately. I guess I finally got over my last relationship and all the bitterness I felt towards the other person. I don't know. I'll always love him...I just can't love him in the way that I did.

I feel like I've matured a lot over the past couple weeks, which is good, because I think I needed to. I stopped hanging out with people who I know I don't really get along with. I'd rather have a few close friends than a bunch of people I just sort of "know" but don't really know. My close friends mean more to me than anything in the world.

...Today I thought a lot.