siara

woohoo... new profile pic! ... finally... although i have actually changed my hair again since this pic...! ... i am in the process of bleaching out all the black & red.. the red comes out easily.. but the black is a bastard... and i have been wanting pink hair badly!.. but at least it is half pink......
piiink hair dye.....



and me with piiiinnnkkk hair.. or well half pink...




lol.. my hair never really stays the same so it is impossible to get an up to date pic! which is pretty much the same for about half the girls on here.. hair dye is my friend!!



so i just wanted to write a quick entry to say helllooooo..... so I have been back for a couple of weeks now from my US trip... didn't end up going to Japan which is .. but oh well, I shall defiently go soon!.. I just couldn't do it at the moment.. my funds were kinda low and my bag was too fucking heavy for me to carry one more day!.. But it was defiently worth going over.. the fashion trade show was excellent and I shall defiently be going back in August for the next one and this time having a stall to promote Beserk Clothing... I have come back all motivated and ready for the next range, but have been so fucking busy making badges for bands for my other company X-Badges that I haven't had much time! ....plus trying to update my webstore with all the range 2 stock and clearance stuff and blah blah... sorry i know i talk about my business waayyy too much.. but it is really scary how much of my life i seem to work at the moment!!



Went to the Overcranked festival last weekend and had waayyy too many mind altering substances and alcoholic beverages.. which makes Siara ..... can't remember that much of the night.. but i do remember having fun!.. ...
Except then i always depressed the next day...i hate being so high and thinking i have worked out how to be happy and content with myself and then realising the next day it is all impossible... life is back to reality.. i still hate myself and relationships are still fucking hard and ruin my life.. lol!.. why can i stand to hear all the truths when i am wasted and then have them kill me when i am straight and let them destroy me... anyways i should shut up.. this was supposed to be a short entry.....

hope you are all happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SIARA
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