sianna

I had the most wonderful time on my day off, the best time I'd had with my girls in so long. Tonight I am alone, I have to get up at three thirty in the morning for the first time in a long time, and also for the first time in a long time I'm not staying up all night in order to spend time with him. But my bed is so lonely and my pillow smells like him. But sometimes I feel like he is completely indifferent to my existence in his life. But then I am afraid I am being needy and asking too much of him. Being in a relationship is insanity. So I have stayed up to late downloading lots of new music, which is cheering me up in a melancholy sort of way. I guess it's always good to have a soundtrack to your sadness.