shazb0t

"While the MC is rhyming
and the DJ's cutting,
I want you all to just get down"

Music is the only thing that gets me back up to do work. Even coffee reaches into the physical not the mental.
As you get older, you ten to hurt more, but learn ignore it better.

Depressed.

Looking at things, and I see it. Aside form the world change, I'm going to change, Things are shifting, things are being new and old is coming out, and other things are getting old. And just when I was loving the cast of characters, they are going to shit.
I feel left out.
I hate that.
I get this feeling like I've been doing my things for so long, that when I get back to my life, it has all changed.

I feel like an astronaut coming home to another planet.

Feel like I can't get enough. I work and work, doing what I do, and it's not enough. Banging this door is getting hard.

Crap.

I want tell her I love her, even though she doesn't feel the same.

"If I could start again, a million miles away, I would keep myself, I would find a way"

So now I'm on the verge of losing my universe again, for it to crumble and reform over time I guess. That is life, but it hurts, it hurts so bad. At least when somebody dies, or hates you and leaves there an end.

I can't take the fading. It's happened so much in my life, all these amazing people I know fade off to their world, never to come back. Now the mist is falling again, and now, they'll just be people you nod to, and make polite conversation, not the ones you hug and shake hands with, and talk for hours about nothing.
Life is changing
Thier, mine.

gah...........so tired of it....so tired o being out of love. fuck.

and I am still right here......