shandylouhoo

And she's back. So maybe it's just that point where you're with someone so long that you don't really feel the need to compliment eachother as much since it's more of a friendship/relationship than one or the other, but lately I've been feeling kinda down about myself. Girls like compliments sometimes, but I really only get them before some "magic moments" happen, which REALLY doesn't make me feel all that sexy anymore.

After my fiance and I almost broke up, things were so perfect for awhile. Then he showed those same old colors again and made me reconsider what I was sticking around with. I felt like I needed to talk to my guy friends again and maybe get some perspective. None of them were of ANY help. Now I get no returned phone calls. Not even a text back. Meh, maybe they all just suck.

I've been spending a lot of time out with my two best chick friends. Between my shopaholic best buddy and my all-of-a-sudden-serious-when-you-least-expect-it-but-otherwise-super-silly buddy, I think I have everything covered.

Maybe I just feel really sexually frustraited, since I really only get sex every so often. It's not like he doesn't offer to me, but something about he and I feels so awkward in bed. I love the feeling of being with him and holding him and naked snuggling, but maybe it's the lack of sexual confidence he has in himself. He kinda lets himself down. I try to encourage and it kinda leads nowhere... I think I'm gonna go bash my head into a wall now...

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