Sorry I’ve disappeared. I’ve been trying to deal with the intense grief and trauma of my favorite person dying 6 months ago. I pushed it down for so long and it surged a month ago and I’ve been suffering since. I’ve been doing a lot of work on myself and my perspective is finally just starting to shift. With this grief though, my panic attacks and anxiety have returned after almost 6 years [where I had gotten pretty good at controlling them].
I’m reaching out.. I’m hoping some of you can tell me what’s worked for you. I’m not a talker and I’ve been told to talk because that’s the only way I’ll heal. So, here I am, talking!
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floyd:
I miss you tons and I'm so sorry you're going through some tough shit right now. When I'm stressed and/or upset, smoking cannabis and having a relaxing bath helps out in the short term. Listening to some of my favorite music usually helps out too. Unfortunately, I've lost close friends and family over the years and it's always difficult. Especially if/when the loss is unexpected or sudden. Even though it's painful, I think it's good to mourn that loss and allow yourself to cry and feel sad about it. One thing that eventually helped me get out of bed every morning was realizing that our time here is limited and it shouldn't be wasted. The loved ones I've lost wouldn't want me to dwell on my sadness to the point it incapacitates me, so I use that as motivation to go out there and be the best I can. And sometimes, being the best you can means barely making it into the real world and still feeling detached from it...and that's ok too. As @rambo mentioned, therapy can also be a great thing if you find a therapist you click with!
melusine2908:
I am so sorry to read this, I suffer from anxiety and depression and what has helped me is really putting myself out there, going put to places I hadn't been or that I find hard going to (like crowded places) working out and really starting to give myself me times to check in and care for my mind and body through meditation (which I still find hard to clear my mind but it gets easier with practice)