sgdevotee

So I just told my business partner that I could no longer work towards getting our idea off the ground. It's been over a year now of little pay and frustrating ambiguity.

I kind of woke up one day and realized that I was living in SF but so paralyzed by the tensions of this process that I could have been living in a box for all that I got out to do and see. I need to appreciate my time in the city and life in general.

The most frustrating thing was that no-one said it was a bad idea. I almost wish someone said "this is the stupidest fucking thing I have ever heard of - get the hell out of my office". but that didn't happen... and the days dragged on and on.

All the while I wasn't even sure if this is what I wanted to do with my life. The company was yet another means to an end rather than an end itself. I really like my partner and it would have been great to work with him again but the tension was just too much and I just lost the wind from my sails.

He took the news really well and I agreed to help him move forward if he wanted to continue without me but man, do I feel vulnerable and exposed. I have a pretty good idea of what I want to accomplish next but I'm having one of those "final scene in the Graduate" moments.

I'll miss my trips to CO and working together with a solid guy like my partner but I know in my heart that this was the right thing to do.

but it still sucks.