Friday Nov 22, 2002

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I'm back.

I got broke, let my membership expire accidentally. kind of a choice between eating and SG. tough one, but I chose eating for a week. I hope you all understand.

more later darlings.
toads:
drool...be mine....
boxterjulep:
it looks like you're ecstatic to be back

Saturday Oct 19, 2002

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yesterday I dyed my hair. something I haven't done in 3 years, when I was a crazy college freshman. my mom accused me of having poor judgement, and my dad told me I have a 'look at me' complex. not that at all. I just feel much more myself with short torquoise/ pink hair. I hadn't realized how much I changed to accomodate the guy...
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juebi:
Nothing wrong with dying your hair an "unatural" color. It doesn't mean you have any complex, just that you are different than the rest. Go for it
ghostina:
first of all...turquoise and pink hair rocks! smile my favorite haircolor of mine was pink!
and you like smashing pumpkins..woohoo!

i can really relate to your experience mentioned above... a few months ago i spent 4 days in a mental rehab center also on suicide watch. but it was the best thing thats ever happened to me...i had finally gotten to see a doctor(i'd never been diagnosed with anything) and i was given anti-depressants. i still go through little periods of depression, but i'm so much more stable now. i guess i just have severe depression..i've been accused of being bipolar before, but who knows.

all i know is just hang in there sweetie! you don't need any boy to keep you stable..you can do it! just surround yourself with friends that are supportive and i think you'll do fine.

wow i sound so fucking preachy! sorry about that...just wanted you to know that i know what you're going through...i live through it everyday. urgh! sucks doesn't it? knowing that we have to take little pills to be considered "normal"..whatever.

anyway hehe...hope you are feeling better now! have a lovely day!

xoxo

Saturday Oct 19, 2002

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yesterday I dyed my hair. something I haven't done in 3 years, when I was a crazy college freshman. my mom accused me of having poor judgement, and my dad told me I have a 'look at me' complex. not that at all. I just feel much more myself with short torquoise/ pink hair. I hadn't realized how much I changed to accomodate the guy...
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Thursday Oct 17, 2002

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I love this site.... it's full of the kinds of girls that I would love to meet and party like rock-stars with. that's something that an old friend of mine used to say, and these girls know what that phrase means. I don't get along with so many of the girls at college - alot of them are catty bitches who judge me before getting...
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leroyj15799:
Well, sg,
you shouldn't be do disheartened by your experience in college. you should probably expect that kind of behavior. it's only typical, right? and behind their laughs are some nasty, dark fears and insecurities.
you sound fascinating.
work hard at school and get what you came there to get: knowledge. whether it's knowledge of your fellow man (so called) or more importantly, the knowledge of the ages, i'm sure you'll find the right course.
have fun.
read more than you think is humanly possible.
kiss,
lj
leroyj15799:
sorry about the triple posting. i am new to this too and i don't understand much about my new computer.