sethy

I lied, I was not feeling dead inside, but quite the opposite.

For the first time in months and months Ive felt alive, felt like I had meaning.

And it's all because of my crush on a girl.


BUT, being who I am, bad luck kicks in right about there.

Reason Ive seemed outa it is because she has a BF, and so we, although were totally into each other, cannot do anything.

And at the end of this month she goes to visit him (he's in australia[long distance thing])

Oh well, I hope she is happy with him because her happiness is what really matters right?


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YAY, thank you all so much.

So many people asked if I was alright and stuff, I feel so loved, I cannot thank you all indivually, but you know who you are, and it really meant a lot to me that people cared.

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Oh, just got back from drive in with some friends, one was amanda god, its so hard not to make a move on her, shes EVERYTHING i look for in a female, but if I were to make a move it could jeopardize her current relationship and I care for her too much to do that...

but still, so very very hard not to just hold her and kiss her like I wanna

BAH! oh well, even if I never get to do that Ill still enjoy her friendship.



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Thanks for listening to me babble and I promise i wont leave you all without your fav. man-whore for that long again

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And oh, once i get back to SR ill put up the old better profile pic i didnt photoshop