selfcontaining

drinking too much seems to be what i do best.
Saw Book of Black Earth play again tonight. They played a short set at the sunset but still rawked my socks right the fuck off.
took a recent weekend trip to portland to visit frinz.
been seeing as many shows as my pocket will allow.
been skateboarding as much as the rain will permit. can't wait until the snow lays itself gently down in the mountains above.
been buying way too many fuckin' cd's.
been forcing myself to eat...
sometimes that doesn't work out to my advantage.

when time makes a frin too far away, it can be enough to kill a heart. beat it into a bloody squished up piece of flesh on the ground.

she is still leaving for NYC...and there is absolutely nothing i can do or say to make her stay.

fuck. work starts in 3 hours and i'm drunk off my ass. hope this coffee will sober me up enough to get through the day.

how long does it take for things to finally go my way? how long does it take for everything to work itself out?
whatever it takes....
time will tell.