selfcontaining

ran out of beer about an hour and a half ago. now i'm working on finishing my 4th jack n coke. the room is slightly spinning and my oh my...whats this?
its starting to rain lightly outside.
4 am
falling asleep seems like it is not going to happen. i might have to start taking shots until i pass out.
i actually did something at work today.
i've been such a lazy fucker for the past week. not only at work, but at home too.
dishes piled up high in the kitchen...i'm hoping that somebody else will take care of that shit. the huge pile of laundry is getting out of control. i can barely walk in my room...so cluttered with junk...
i want a new job. i can't get motivated for work anymore. i don't even have to think about it anymore...just show up to work when i feel like it. nobody notices. or they just choose not to say anything. either way, i need to find something that i get excited about (work wise) and something that i want to do/learn/excell at.
fuck
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