selfcontaining

its all i can do right now
i can hardly stand it
hardly stand myself
the nights and days seem to pass ever so fast now
my habits drag me down
woke up to my daily headache
and thought of her
thought of how she was not the one laying next to me
made me sick enough to doubt myself
made me question my intentions
made me think of everything i will never share with her
and i don't even know her name
can't even remember what she looks like
yet she still burns inside my head
why won't she leave me alone?