selfcontaining

lowered my sheild...
lowered my defenses....
happier now feeling all senses...
hightened my soul, my awareness...
isn't it great being defenseless...
now i'm not protected...

i fear the cowboys will eat me up.
only time will tell....
they are so vicious.
i must consume more of the oval capsules.

when will this pain slow the blood in my viens?
she stops my thoughts...
she stops my heart...
she alone can kill me.
the joy and the pain...
i used to never let my sheild down.
now i have thrown it aside.
i never understood this emotion.
i can taste life...its delicous.
there is something i've got to see.
i've got to see whats really inside of me.
she

she can destroy me...
and i will let her.
i will greet her with open arms.

her footsteps bring my heart to a pounding orgasm within my chest.
my tears might disapear.
i'll have to overcome the best that i can.

fuck you all later.
i'm off to hang with the cowboys...