selfcontaining

I tried....
i tried very hard...
but to no avail...

I FUCKING HATE PEOPLE!!!!!
PEOPLE ARE SO FUCKING STUPID!!!
If i don't kill somebody tomorrow at work it will be a goddamn miracle.

one more day...
I just keep telling myself...
one more lousy day....
I do not know what the outcome will be...
but if i don't come home in a comma or end up in jail....it will be a good day.

but enters the girl factor...
she is of great interest to me.
she is like no other i have come in contact with. strange things escape my mouth as i conversate with her. it is almost like i am outside of myself when i speak to her or around her. i am certain she sees through me...feeds on my faults...my insecurities. but she hasn't told me to fuck off yet (which is a very good thing).
i am strangely drawn to her eyes...
she speaks of interesting things...
she is dark.
she is evil.
she hates people.

she has kept close contact with my various means of comunique...
is she willing to deal with my phycotic episodes?...
only time will tell.

distance makes the heart grow fonder...


bring it