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So yesterday I did my drug test I am CERTAIN i will fail because 68 days ago yesterday I smoked a joint and the hair test tests back 90 days so yeah go me for fucking up the best job I could have gotten which paid $12.50 an HOUR!!!! fucking a I am an idiot. Oh and I got a hair cut yesterday and my eyebrows waxed and a few days ago my fiance called me to tell me he broke our car and he has to get a new one, i did not say anything mean to him at all but never the less he has refused to answer my calls or call me since then so apparently we are not talking ONCE AGAIN what is that the third time this month? I don't know if I can keep doing this. I hate being in a relationship where every other day or week he calls me with a catastrophe, is pissed off at me and wont talk to me, or is doing something that is so much more important than just calling me to say hi I'm ok don't worry about me. It seems like the whole world is more important to him than me...anyways.