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Christmas was wonderful. Now to the hustle and bustle of everyday life. Yeah right, Im on sick leave. I have no life. I have a doctors appt on the 29th. Im debating on whether or not to have the doctor give me a medical release so I can go back to Comcast. If not, I have to find somewhere else. Which has actually been quite hard. I have not been able to find any openings to any places that won't drive me crazy.

LoL. Last night, Wes and I snuck into his mothers house to set up his sons computer. I was worried that the neighbors were going to call.

Now onto the crazy shit. Ok bear with me while I explain this. Now I practice witchcraft, have been doing so for four years. I am a very spiritual person. Wes is also. Almost EVERYONE we associate with is either actively Wiccan, or is associated with Magick is some way. And we all believe that there are outside forces that effect our lives in both the good and the bad ways.

Ok. Still with me? LoL. When Wes and I first met, he had a girlfriend of 7 years, and I had a boyfriend of 4 years. We were both VERY unhappy with our relationship, and became close friends that confided in each other. While I was in VA for college, he broke up with his gf, when I came back home, I broke up with my bf. So we started dating. Now his gf, was very upset about this, because she thought we were together the whole time, and that our time overlapped with him and her (but it did not). And admittedly, he was with her for 7 years, they had alot of history. House, blah blah blah. So it was tough when they broke up, and she was MARRIED two months later.

So lets fast forward to 4 days ago. When I found out that he was cheating. The way he was acting was TOTALLY not him. When he told me how last month he wanted me out,, I was totally shocked, because that was not HIM. He did not act like this, or do things illogically. He prides himself on logic, and even in the most stressed situations, he doesn't do anything "just cause" . So we were at Denny's 2-3 nights ago, and BAM! I figured it out. It was like a freaking epiphany.

4 yrs into their relationship, his gf got sick with cancer. Stayed home, didnt work. He took care of her. But even when she got better she demanded alot of him. She worked 18-20 hour days during the week. And she expected him to come home clean, cook, do everything even though she was totally capable himself. She started spending their money without him knowing. And all the hours he worked, all the money he brought in, she spent it. She admittedly was a bit pyscho.

Now 4 years into our relationship. I get sick, stay home, and whatnot. Unlike here, I clean, I cook. If I am not working, and he is supporting the both of us. I figure, I should do all the house work. Now with the personality that Wes has, and his life, (admittedly he has some issues he ha snot dealt with) he subconsciously compared the two, and then shut down as to protect himself. And if you understand psychology you can agree. During this "shutdown" he acted irrationally. Now when I presented this idea to him, he thought about it, and didnt have a rebuttle, because it fit! So that was step one.

Now the thing was, why did he start acting all weird. If you practice magick, you know that someones energy signature can be embedded into crystal and metal. Before he and his ex broke up, she gave him a sword. now their break up was kind of dirty, as she has all his shit on the front lawn lol. and he has kept the sword, along with his other sword that he has had for YEARS now, that has years of his energy signature in it. and for about a year he has kept both under the bed. (we have weapons all around the house, lol) in about September, when he said that was when he first started feeling like we were getting bad, it also happens that in September he put the sword she gave him in the car. Now the thing is, if his signature is stronger then hers, then that is fine. But once he moved it in the car, it was not being overpowered by Wesley sword, so it was free to attack. We both believe (among with many of our friends) that she embedded or conjured something into that sword that would either

1) Capture and contain Wes
2) Harm me

Either way, she somehow had a magickal spell to fuck us over. Which in more detail, when the logical time line, and explanation comes in, it all matches and all lines up. Yay for logic and magick, which goes every well hand in hand actually.

SO what to do now. Evidently, there was a wedge forced between us. So from a magickal standpoint we need to fix this. Because logically we have fixed it, and emotionally we have fixed it. And if you want more details on the WHOLE situation, then PM me. This was just the quickie version.

Ok, so how do we fix it? we have been pushing off our handfasting for months now. It was supposed to be this summer, now we pushed it to next september. So we, and our very spiritual friends have been thinking about a way to combat this. Because we ALL agree that there is some spiritual source attacking us separately and apart.

So here is our solution
1) Push (informal-no huge wedding like ceremony, not alot of people) handfasting ceremony up, ASAP on a day where we can get the most energy out of the earth. We need to bind ourselves together spiritually.
2) Cast protection spells, and receiving blessings from our Wiccan and non wiccan friends.
3) Cleanse the sword (and there are numerous ways on how to do this, but we are still trying to figure out how)

Wow, that was alot lol. I know some of you may think I/We are crazy. But trust us, its not only us that believe in this. Many of our friends are Wiccan and agree also.

Well I am going now, cuddle time.