seabiscuit79

Impulses

Always a second away from disaster.
-a welcome change
Just a heart beat away from tragedy.
-break the monotony
The impulse to cause a change.
-worth the steep price

How long til I'm swayed to jerk the wheel, close my eyes, take a leap.
When will fear be overcome by desperation ( to know...)
Why try to control anything. just let it all go....
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Inescapable Companion

Its embrace is vast and dark
Cold, it wraps me in icy blankets
Freezing until it hurts all over
And deep within
It sinks its jagged terrible fangs
Into my flesh it rends its will
Ripping strips of flesh from my chest
Baring my heart, vulnerable as a victim
Its dirges are sung silently in my ear
Drag me deeper than shadowed depths...
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Violence

I commit violent acts
Against my self, I
Rape and Torture, I
Eviscerate, and Immolate
I Choke and Break
again and again, and
again I Rend and Tear, I
Strip Bones Bare
I Gouge and Gore
myself to pieces
and shreds

I commit Violent acts
In my head
I Stab with blade
And Crush with rock
I push into traffic
I tumble down stairs...
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Psychotic Threshold

Hey, I killed him!
I killed him to prove a point.
He thought that people would miss him.
He thought that people cared.
I proved him wrong.
I killed him!
Don't bother to fake your concern.
He's gone
Don't bother with flowers or tears
He's gone
The knives I used on him shine red and reflect.
Their crimson blades lay out like shards...
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Infirm

What a wretched creature
It craves the flesh
It taste its pleasure
It slaves to desires
It bends its back to a master

What a violent creature
It craves the blood
It strikes in Anger
It lashes in fear
It cows to a stronger one

What a wretched creature
It salivates for the bell
It feeds its shame
It stokes the lust
It crawls...
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Doesn't Matter

another empty day
hollow like a fallen tree
complete with cold slow drafts
insights are unbearable
if the sun was out today
i wouldn't know
spring won't make it
illusions falling away
time stands by waiting
anchoring me here
no tomorrows left
not really
can't recognize them
like water spilled on the image
blended together like water colors
options are limited
dwindling to...
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Cold. Heavy. Guilt.

It was so painful it doubled me
So cold in my stomach
It was like a ball of ice
But looking back it was always there
Just growing
Im not precognitive
But I knew
Inaction is a sin
It may not be carved in stone
My sin is my guilt
Something to carry forever
A heavy stone
It pulls me beneath cold...
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Carbonize

Burn in the relentless fire of life
- Scathing rebuke of eternity
Dowse the cinders with fetid water
- the stagnation of humanity
Bury the ash in blasted earth
- the oversight of us all
We are gone a fraction of forever
-and are here a fraction of that
Existence as temporary as smoke
- Exhaled and left to drift
Live to be only...
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As I like utilizing my blog space on other sites, left nameless for now, for writing/poetry I see no reason not to do the same here. I usually appreciate comments about my writing. The blogs that follow will most often be creations of my weathered mind.

Hello Suicidegirls Community I'm Josh A.K.A. Jesus. I'm a Sagitarius. I like all types of food and oh yeah I love girls/women/ladies, whatever helps you sleep at night.