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What a day, I have finally finished my midterms, hopefully they went alright. . Just got home from a party that just got rolled on. I've never kept a journal or anything before. I guess I feel comfortable letting a bunch of people that I don't know read this. I just feel like I've had a crazy relationship with my dad. Its almost easier to not be close to him, its like, why get close to him if he is not going to be around for very long. I keep thinking back to when I was ten and my mom passed away. Even though im independent and partying it up in college, it still feels like my dad is there if I ever needed anything. Im not really sure what its going to be like when he's gone. Furthermore, I feel like my life is lacking direction. Im a politics major, but what am I going to do with that? I have no idea what I want to do after college. It doesn't seem like my life is ever just OK. There is always drama or shit going on, its like I just want to relax and not worry all the time. My girlfriend and I just broke up, mainly just because of the whole long distance thing. I really just want to be happy, whatever that means. I think if I could figure out what I want, things might go a little better.