Sick sick sick. It all started Friday afternoon with a tummyache. I couldn't get to sleep until Saturday morning and woke up with a worse one... it got crippling and at one point I really wanted to go to the hospital -- severe nausea, cramps that made me cry and a fever... and now i'm still sitting at my home. I'm paranoid it's something really bad, but I don't want to go to the hospital...
Last night I freaked out and told him that I wanted to go... he got really mad and said he would go, but in very much an angry way. He left to smoke a cigarette and I started crying because I was in so much physical pain and couldn't understand... why someone who I thought loved me wouldn't even be sad when I was in such a bad place... but he came back and had calmed down. And later he cleaned up my place, because I was incapable of cleaning it up myself. So I suppose I just ought not to think about it.
I'm listening to this really grating thing on NPR about how a scarf is symbolically warming. Uh, yeah, and it also covers a thin layer of skin that covers a major transit point for blood. Duh!
Shit. I'm just a pile of miserablism, and I also haven't done any work this weekend. I just really wish I knew why my health was so awful right now...
So tomorrow morning I'm going to walk to the health center and see if I need to go to the hospital or (hopefully) if they can diagnose it enough to give me antibiotics. Shizzle.
What a gurmpy entry.
Oh! Well if you want to make me feel better, you know the drill.
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Last night I freaked out and told him that I wanted to go... he got really mad and said he would go, but in very much an angry way. He left to smoke a cigarette and I started crying because I was in so much physical pain and couldn't understand... why someone who I thought loved me wouldn't even be sad when I was in such a bad place... but he came back and had calmed down. And later he cleaned up my place, because I was incapable of cleaning it up myself. So I suppose I just ought not to think about it.
I'm listening to this really grating thing on NPR about how a scarf is symbolically warming. Uh, yeah, and it also covers a thin layer of skin that covers a major transit point for blood. Duh!
Shit. I'm just a pile of miserablism, and I also haven't done any work this weekend. I just really wish I knew why my health was so awful right now...
So tomorrow morning I'm going to walk to the health center and see if I need to go to the hospital or (hopefully) if they can diagnose it enough to give me antibiotics. Shizzle.
What a gurmpy entry.
Oh! Well if you want to make me feel better, you know the drill.
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alohra:
Aaw, thanks for the vote of confidence! Yeah, it was a bit stressful, but I think that it really helped that alot of the other girls seemed SUPER-nervous and shy. I felt like they received an accurate impression of who I am, for better or worse. feeling better?
alohra:
You have a photoshoot tuesday, as in today???? That's super-cool. I'm excited for you. London told us that we'll hear back anywhere from a week later to a month, so I'm not exactly sure. I would love to take you out shopping. Just give me a call. I'll e-mail you my phone number.