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Monday Oct 13, 2003

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Moo. My last one sounded all pitying and stuff. So, unabashed hilarity... now!

...or not. bah., As Sarah says, if you are sad then you can sometimes stop pretending to have a good time and just be sad instead.

Hmm. I'm trying to think up entertaining things to say without being too obviously self deprecating or someshit. But really, I've been plodding around in my pajama pants all day feeling like shit, writing papers, and crying. (Not a major percentage of that is related to my lameness the other day. This is just October-related depression). It's weird that for the first time I'm experiencing this in such a... uh, public venue? I don't know. I mean... I'm perfectly able to articulate a lot of the things that currently bother me, but that doesn't mean that they don't upset me just as much as they always do. I've been very grumpy and short-tempered lately. In addition, I've become much more self-conscious... how much of this is just indulgence & ego-stroking ('til it SPURTS). How much of myself should I be revealing of myself, in such a public venue?

But then again, earlier I spent quite a lot of time trying to articulate a very indefineable sense of sadness that I was feeling, mixed in with this... sensation of being terribly useless. As opposed to now, when I'm just directly *sad*. Huh.

Of course, I could just say that ramen is a hell-bane and lots of people would respond to this, anyway. You guys are awesome. So I shall say:
Remember that time that we went to R'lyeh and hilarity ensued and the boat crashed? Fuck YEAH you remember.

moo!

Edit to say that there is someone who keeps leaving nice comments in my journal and I always want to respond. But this person doesn't have a journal! Start keeping one so that people can comment! smile
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posh:
if i'm feeling sad, i act sad. i can never fake it well and really i don't think i should have to make mtyself look happy for the sake of other people. when you know sadness, it makes the happiness all the more better when it rolls around.
i hope you start feeling better, love.
*hugs*
Oct 16, 2003
ryan:
sad is normal... i think....
i'm here now...had my first shoot last night....
yay! contact me....we kick it... SG style...
kiss
Oct 17, 2003

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