Totally disappear from anything resembling social stuff. Lots of stuff has been going on.
August: Rally was busy. Two jobs. Busy busy busy.
September: Awful. Which is by far not anywhere near enough to explain how bad it was.
October so far: Work. No desire to be social. Distant. Just want to lay down and die since September.
As it is, I have no time to spare for death. As it is wasting my time and goals. So for now. Find second job, continue studying my random array of stuff, and do what I feel needs to be done.
Or option two, as I've been told it is. Find a nice girl, get a good job and settle down. I'm not fond of that option. It's bland.
I try not to be a pessimistic person. But after last month. It's significantly harder.
On the bright side. I'm still alive. And that's better than the alternative. For now, continue going forward till I find something worthwhile.