Okay, I don't really do relationships.
If I like a girl, I create a fantasy scenario in my head then destroy every possible thing about it ruthlessly to entirely annihilate any desire of being with someone. Which is sad to say, remarkably self-destructive. But hey, that's life.
Now here's the weird part. Met a girl, like this girl, we've been getting to know her, and I just can't create one of those scenarios in my head to do this. Just can't.
Either I'm losing my mind or I genuinely like this girl. I'm leaning on the first.
There are two reasons I do this. One, I'm afraid of being hurt. Simple, yea, kinda lame.
Two, I hurt people, more or less emotionally. Not even intentionally, I'm just so far disconnected on an emotional level that I just can't do it.
This is my random rant of the day. Even though it's been some few days since I've even been on a computer, yay, work. Keeping busy helps. I like keeping busy.
