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I am sleepy, but too excited or I guess nervous to sleep. I am hosting a bridal shower today, and I hope it goes well. The damn thing has me totally broke. Well that and I got sick this week, so I couldn't work. I hate money. But then again, who doesn't. I am surprised I actually found a wireless connection, but extremely pleased that...
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_holden_:
Thanks love. I wish you could see Muse too....their definitely worth seeing if you ever get the chance. I hope you had fun at your bridal shower and that work is going better for you. Take care. kiss
mysweetisrael:
So how'd the shower go?

I hear ya about working holidays but I mostly don't care about working them because they're more important to other people than they are to me and most of them I don't celebrate anyway. Working on Christmas is not a problem for me. Heh.

Having said that, if I wanted to celebrate a religious holiday and work wouldn't give me off for it, I'd quit. I don't care what the job is. I guess it's tougher, though, when it's a holiday that almost everyone asks off for.

And I second that vote for seeing Muse live. I saw them however many years ago when they opened for the Foo Fighters and Red Hot Chili Peppers. Their set was amazing.
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So I picked up my bridesmaid dress last night. Now I freaking have to buy shoes for the thing and it is a very difficult colour dress to match. I feel like I am spending a small fortune on this wedding, which is really stressing me out. I am pretty sure that I was the "replacement" bridesmaid bc the bride got into a huge fight...
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timber_:
weddings are expensive! even if it's not yours, lol. i feel your pain.. two of my best friends got married last year.
mysweetisrael:
Yeah, I pretty much went broke when one of my best friends got married. I didn't even get him a gift because I spent so much on just getting there. It was a great time, though.
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Well I am drunk and horny... those two so often come together. My man will be here in less than three days and I am totally stoked! He will be in town for the weekend. The bad thing is I just went and had lots of drinks with a girlfriend of mine and her b-day is Monday so we are going to take her out....
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chazgasm:
hump hump wink
_holden_:
Thanks babe. I can't take all of the credit because it was my tattoo guy who figured it out for me. Hope things are going well for you. kiss kiss
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Losing the Internet today due to the fact that I now live alone and just paid school tuition. Hope to have it back sometime soon. frown frown frown
khoos:
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Paying tuition always sucks... for the weeks leading up to it I was always excited because I had THOUSANDS of dollars in my bank account. But then, once it's paid, I had like $2 or $3 left.
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So I had a very drunk guest at my table tonight. He wasn't drunk or belligerent, but very clearly heavily intoxicated.... He was in a party of five and he was the only wasted one. His wife, or woman had to have a great deal of red wine to drink because her teeth were really stained, but she was well behaved. I told my management...
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chazgasm:
haha sounds like good times
saltlord:
VIP no showes are crap! You need to roll into some bartending shifts. That's one reason I got out of management. My Barrtenders were walking fat and I had to handle the shit when it hit the fan.
I hated cutting people off, but most of the time they were cool if you found a way to do it on the sly.
I'm Rick James Bitch! Is fucking funny. I would totally pull that shit.
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Well I have another therapy appointment today. I am really glad I went last week, I don't know what I was so afraid of. I am not going back into individual therapy; I am just going for what she calls "booster sessions." The nice thing was her comfort that I am going through a normal period in my relationship. That did make me feel much...
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_holden_:
Therapy has really helped me. I've been in therapy for a little over two years now. It just helps me find balance in my life. I am glad you found someone that you can trust and talk to. Take care. I hope you are doing well. smile
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I have been really stressed lately and haven't been handling it the best. I went to school today to try to straighten out stuff so I can get my fall classes in order. I got some of what I need to do done, but some people whom I need to speak with weren't available. I went to the shrink's office to get back into group...
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mysweetisrael:
Maybe you should stick to the appointment. It sounds like you want to talk to her. Maybe it's something you need right now.
endlessly:
Was just stopping by to say hello, but now, damn it woman you have me concerned!! So here's what I want you to do:

Smile

Smile again

Maybe even try to laugh

Now go to the bathroom mirror and make silly faces, eventually you'll start to laugh. Unless you don't have a funny face.

I know I always laugh. kiss kiss
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Things haven't been going too well in my relationship and that downright sucks. I am not sure how to fix the problem perminately. I feel like every week there is some new huge drama with him, and yes sometimes i am part of that problem. But most often i am not, and i just want some rest from it all. I love him and that...
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mysweetisrael:
If nothing else, I've learned that relationships require a lot of effort.
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I am being lazy today and sitting around the house eating ice cream and cherries. It is a good thing that i have to work this evening.
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endlessly:
No, not strange. Maybe just a little disconcerting or otherwise.............. ah fuck it. Yeah, that was strange. biggrin Perhaps you were dreaming about me?? And maybe in said dream I was tall and my name was Jean-Paul and women found me irresistible?? It's just a guess.
endlessly:
Uh wi-wi!
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So should i care that the guy that i am seeing thinks of me as second best in bed? I hardly dare to think that i am amazing or anything, but i still don't like hearing it. His number one was a girl he dated over 3 years ago. I think they were together for almost 2 years and they had sex almost everyday. He...
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zetaalfaorion:
I know what you mean...I had a gf that would tell me about some of the experiences she had in the past, which is really stupid on her part. If you want to end a relationship all you got to do is talk about what you did with other people, i don't really undestand why people want to do that. Once they tell you anything about the past it really sinks in and the relationship won't be the same after that.
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Well it is nighttime once again. Lately this has been a really hard time for me. It is when my demons get the best of me. So rather than cut, which is what I desperately want right now, I am writing this blog. Don't feel like you have to respond to it, it is just the rambling of a girl trying to be strong. I...
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kthxbi:
take care of yourself.

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i really cannot say much because it seems like an "inner" thing that you can only handle. way back i was labeled by a shrink as manic depessive, which means i have high highs and low lows. i'm not sure if i believed all that. i just feel i was cornered and in a bad situation. i got myself out of that situation and became comfortable and well-adjusted. my advice would be to do all that you can do to feel your best.

good luck.